| Tuesday, November 28, 2006 |
| Post-Turkey Day |
So...I had a good week last week, and an okay Thanksgiving. In the scheme of things I maintained over the holiday, and have had quite the discipline since - yeah for me! I'm on hell week, so I'm hoping all doesn't go downhill. I've been nursing my knee since injuring it last week on an odd-angled leg press machine. It really hurt my feelings to have to miss two days of volleyball last week and not being able to anything but cycle, but at my age I'm not going to be silly and ignore what my body is saying.
There's not much else to tell...life is good. |
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| Sunday, November 12, 2006 |
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A pic of me at church today...I still look at myself in pics and have to study them. It's still an adjustment to see myself as I am today, vs. me and the way I visualize myself...the old me - 100lbs heavier. Is that crazy, or what??? I have to look at my face and say..."that's me." I look at my torso and say a grand hallelujah for a smaller "shelf," I don't have Mrs. Clause cheeks hiding my face, arms gouging out from my sides or hips that look like Pat from Saturday Night Live. I'm like - wow...I'm actually growing a shape. There's less of me, and it's real. It's funny that I've been at this for almost two years and I'm still adjusting to the physical changes. I was in the nursery at church a couple weeks ago to see my daughter, and a few kids in the room told her that I was at the door to see her, and she was like...my mom's not here. She didn't even recognize me! Still crazy after all these years.
I've discovered No Pudge low fat brownie mix....OMG! Delish! And...they were nice enough to give a recipe for single servings that can conveniently be made in the microwave. Can't beat that...yum.
I'm still jumping through mental hoops, but heading in the right direction. It was a good week, and I'm looking forward to what lies ahead.
Thanks for all your love folks. |
| posted by heavenlydm @ 9:04 PM |
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| Thursday, November 09, 2006 |
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I can't believe I've done the very thing I hate...fallen off the blog wagon. It's not so much that my real life is so busy or interesting. Somewhere in all the transition I lost the desire to maintain my blog, and poured my heart out into my journal.
I've been learning a lot about me...
There are some things I didn't know about myself relationally that I learned by dating UT (my first attempt at romance in 11 years). I gained and lost an adored friend in a short period of time, and it ripped my heart to shreds. There are some things I've done that I never thought I'd do...definite no-no's, that I've had to recover from (emotionally and spiritually).
I've reconciled some desires, and realized a few dreams, and in all that I've yo-yo'd on the same five pounds and have finally come to the place where enough is enough. I've got clothes in the closet that are a size smaller than I am now that I want to fit into (dang nabbit). I've got health goals that I want to realize. I've got a list of things I want to accomplish that require me to press on. Lastly, I've discovered I can live in a world of fitness without being a gym whore!
I've missed everybody and felt the joy of your successes and the sadness of your disappointments. I'm attempting to crawl back into my skin and get back into the thick of things. The problem is...everything has changed! Everyone else's worlds have changed. How do I pick up the pieces and regain my spot in our circle of friends (that has morphed)? HELP! |
| posted by heavenlydm @ 5:28 PM |
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