| Tuesday, November 22, 2005 |
| Holiday Countdown |
| You Should Learn Japanese | 
You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.
From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko! |
All this holiday hype is making me crave fish! I’ve been eating salmon galore. I wish I lived near the shore where I could get fresh not frozen, like the old days in Boston. I loved going to the pier and getting fish caught that day, not to mention the price break. I miss the shore.
I feel like I’m just counting down the days, first to Thanksgiving, then to Christmas. There’s always pressure surrounding these holidays, but for me I’m going to feel some sense of accomplishment for getting through them with a loss, or minimally, being able to stay the same. I don’t have any holiday depression, no pressure to buy gifts or to show up here or there. I have no good or bad stories about drunken family members and abuse. I’m just trying to make it through to another year end with positive accomplishments.
My soul is a little weary with all the changes going on in my life and around me. It’s no specific thing, just all of them put together. I think it’s time to get a little more out on paper so I’m not feeling so full. This is one of those times I hate being the “go to” person. I want a break. Let someone else do it, be it, fix it, make it, break it, bring it…let me be. This may sound a little somber, but I’m actually in good spirits. It’s one of those times in life where you can be really good at setting boundaries, because if you don’t you’ll cave in, melt down, blow up. I don’t want to get lost in the midst of my self-discovery while loosing weight. I want to come out on top in ship-shape, and to do that I must stop people and things from dumping one more good one on me.
This brings me to that place of knowing I need God more than ever right now. I really need His perspective. I want wholeness. I want a healthy soul, free of fear, manipulation and control. I want to walk in love and be loving – demonstrating it before the world. I want to do and say, not just say. I want my yes to be yes and my no to be no. I want upright character, moral fortitude…to be a person of integrity. I want balance in all areas. Only God can help me get there, or else all my thinking will lead me to a “relative success” vs. the best thing for me. I don’t want to be a copy-cat of someone else…I want to be the best me.
LOL…I’m ready for something light now :@) |
posted by heavenlydm @ 2:56 PM   |
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Diane, again your post really speaks to me. Especially with respect to the setting of boundaries and the desire to find balance. I need to do a much better job with each of these. Thank you for providing such substantial food for thought. There is a much here to digest.
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I can't imagine what it's like to keep your busy lawyer life in balance. I'm glad it spurred you on - I think as long as it's in the forefront of your mind, it's easier to implement (balance) in the present.
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Diane, again your post really speaks to me. Especially with respect to the setting of boundaries and the desire to find balance. I need to do a much better job with each of these. Thank you for providing such substantial food for thought. There is a much here to digest.